Authentically Mine

Just a suggestion to myself for the future...don't ever have a Venti Cafe Latte on an empty stomach. I swear to god I should have just had two martinis! My day went down from there, or maybe I "survived" my day because of it. I will never really know.

One of the things about being a project manager is that you are not expert in any one aspect of the project, graphical design, user interface, development of code, etc. but yet you get to play the lucky role of making it all come together, on time, on (or hopefully under) budget, while making sure that everyone gets what they think is best in the end product, because they are the experts. This is a role I don't mind, most days, or maybe I am just used to it. The struggle I have with it is when people butt heads, and when people who are passionate about what they do feel strongly about something they passionately (not in the romantic sense) butt heads. In my role I usually quietly slide aside (as fast as I can) and listen. If I have a strong opinion one way or the other, or if I need to re-assert the desires of the client I certainly speak up. Sometimes I can go with either direction, and those are the hardest times.

I know that is all vague but it's work talk so I will sum up my day this way...

7:30 AM Venti Cafe Latte on an empty stomach.

8:00 AM-5:00 PM trying to get to a solution that everyone is happy with.

5:00 PM realizing that not everyone is going to be happy but we have a solution for what is going live tomorrow morning and we can work out the rest from there.

5:00 PM - 6:00 PM - catching up on emails that came in while I was running around like an over caffinated chicken with my head cut off from 8-5.

6:17 PM quietly crying in my car as I think about my nana who passed away a year ago tonight at 9:18 PM and wondering why I remember the exact time? Possibly it was because I was with her.

7:23 PM feeling very glad that tomorrow is Friday and very grateful that I really do like my no-so-new-anymore job and the people I work with.

I miss you Nana I learned more from you than you can ever imagine.