Authentically Mine

The amount of sunshine today is simply fantastic - since I have not been outside much I can imagine it warm and spring-like even though it is still quite chilly. One more month - the month of March - the longest month of the year as far as I am concerned and we will be in spring! It is already staying lighter and lighter out at the end of the day and I love it!

Working yesterday really wiped me out - the day went by quickly but it was relatively fast paced and intense keeping up with all of the needs of the participants and professor of the workshop. Today I just feel spent. I want to be productive but I have really only done so in small spurts: A few loads of laundry here, downloading some new diabetes tracking software that I need for sending in my results on a weekly basis, and getting the bathroom cleaned have been my two biggest accomplishments.

I am hoping for a short nap before dinner and then we begin another week.

I am watching Marley sleep and thinking how wonderful it is that dogs can sleep so fully, like a baby, with reckless abandon to the sleep itself.

So how way your weekend?

I sit here at work today and it is peaceful. A lot of people worked from home because of the predicted snow. It is snowing. Big, white, pretty, fluffy snowflaks that seem to be sticking to the grass but not the street. At least not yet. The only sounds I hear are the sounds of the heat, my typing and the woman next to me typing. I like it when the days at work are peaceful, especially on Fridays. I am sure the snow will accumulate. I just hope my massage appointment does not get cancelled for tomorrow morning.

I feel like there is a lot of waiting going on these days in my life and while I am generally a "hurry up and get here" person. I am practicing being in the moment and enjoying the wait rather than feeling frantic for things to hurry up and happen.

As I embark on what has the potential to be the year in my life with the most changes. I need to remind myself of what is important constantly. I bought myself a little reminder to wear around my neck. The one I bough will have three cicrles. The words I chose, one for each circle are: Faith, Simplicity, and Love. I am hoping that wearing this can be a sublte daily reminder of what is important. No only did the piece of jewlery catch my eye but the Lisa's site is inspiring to me on a daily basis. Her and her twin sister Chrissy have amazing perspectives on life. I hope to continue to read them regularly and learn from them

I fee like I have posted this image before so mea culpa and apologies if this is redundant!.

Even though today is really no different than yesterday - well less meetings for sure - but even though it is about the same I feel very peaceful today. I did not wake up feeling this way. I woke up with my mind in overdrive, but some where between then and now I have calmed down (eveen with a cup of coffee) into a peaceful acceptance feeling that it all will work out as it is supposed to in the coming yeatr.

I will take that for a Friday! Planning to walk down to the local pizza joint Upper Crust tonight with the husband and then lay low and stay out of the snow as much as we can!

Some how this week I came acorss It's The Little Things blog. I was initially drawn in by her silver jewlery. Then I discovered she is also a wonderful writer with a phenominal perspective on life. Her story about her disabled son are amazing and writting in such a soulful way rather than a "here are all the struggles I have to go through" manner.

I love this necklace and would love to get the words "simplicity" and "authenticity" on each circle, and maybe even get a 3rd circel so I can have my 3 words for 2008 put on there, I think my 3rd word would be ..... ok so I am not sure yet! 

Maybe someday (if we get a tax refund) I will treat myself. This not spending so much money thing that I am doing is hard! This week I would have loved to have gotten this necklace and a new poppet but instead I bought neither. Check out the Love Bug Poppet  how cute....but if I did get one it would probably be the Choco Poppet.

I did get to buy myself new brakes for the car. We just made the last car payment in late January and Wa La now we need brakes. Since you can't mess around with that - we got new brakes - and I did not get a necklace or a poppet. Yeah poor me I know.

The recluse in me is still trying to win out. I think I am going to take a friend up on an offer to just go hang out and read at Starbucks or something. Get myself out of myself for a bit.

I went out after work tonight with some friends from my old job and a friend from my current job came along. We just met for drinks and appetizers. I was glad I made myself go to just do SOMETHING other than come home and start puttering on the computer but really I was not all that into it.

I liked everyone there we chatted up a good bit but I really just felt as if I was watching from the outside, and not really relaxed or enjoying myself.  I know it is me and I know it will pass, so I guess I don't have too much more to say about it.

Right now it is hailing out and there was even some thunder and lightening. I would like to stay as dry as possible tomorrow. Clean a bit, read a bit ya know? Maybe even take on what seems to be a big challenge lately of doing a real writing prompt.

Today is definitely starting off better than any of yesterday was so I am very thankful for that.

Sitting in Starbucks watching the snow fall outside and sipping my FREE non-fat mocha latte I am content for the moment. I know this can change in an instant but I take what I can get when I can get it. I think the Café Latte is my key to keeping some weight on while I am on this diabetes med that keeps me uninterested in food and thus losing weight. A plight many would like to have I realize, but for me it is a real challenge. At 350 calories each but no sugar, it is just what I need. Except for the ding in the “latte factor of money”. At $2.80 cents for a tall I will be spending $12 a week on coffee. BUT then again it is still about the same as Ensure which my doctor recommended which is GROSS.

Not much on tap for today other than a quick trip to Costco to scope out Superbowl chili supplies for next week and pick up some shampoo. Then a quick visit with my grandmother at the nursing home and a jaunt to Target. I figure I can have it all done by 1:00, still get some cleaning done around the house and be totally relaxing by 3:00.

Sometimes it is the simple goals that are the nicest to have.